Looking for volunteers!

06:15 pm - Done

1.2 Done^^
(The hair thingy)

Pics will follow soon...damn I'm hot xD

Current Mood: cheerful

12:54 pm

(In this plan I will set goals, in small steps so that it is motivating. I want go achieve one goal at least per day. I found a nice achievement generator for this job J Theese Goals give points, and after a certain amount I’ll treat myself a bit)

4 – Point plan to a better life. 

I) Physical

I really hate my body, and that mustn’t be. I feel fat, untrained, unflexible. I have scars all over my shoulders.

I.1) Shape.

I’ll get a 3 month card for the fitness center, like I did 1 ½ years before, but back there I stopped after 5 month although I felt a lot better.

I want to go there twice a week for two hours, and later maybe 3 times. It’s not my aim to become superman but I want to feel good, and therefore I need some workout.

First Goal:

I. 2) Hair.

As you might know my hair reach about one third of my back and one the one hand I love them. But on the other hand I know that they have to be cut next year when I have to absolve my military service. Furthermore I’m to lazy to keep them neat and they would need a cut because they have split ends.

And all in all they are a synonym for all the weight I carry in my head (in that case: ON my head ^^) 

First (and only) Goal:

I. 3) Outfit.

All my shoes are worn out, I wear Band T-shirts of Bands I haven’t heard to in years, and only wear black jeans. Speaks for itself I think, and so I’ll get a new collection of garb.

First Goal:

II) The Spirit

Random Enrages because of my stacked and concealed depression, delaying everything as long as possible, not being honest to myself and more important to others.

II. 1) Delay

I’m always trying to do everything at the last possible day, which gets me into a lot of trouble, not only in school but also private, especially if the time doesn’t sufficient then and I can’t finish it in time.

First Goal:

II. 2) Truth

Sometimes, well too often I think, I don’t tell the truth. Especially if I missed a deadline for something I delayed and don’t want to have negative effects.

First Goal:

II. 3) Emo

Okay I had partly very crappy life but I have way too much self-pity.

Sometimes it’s nice to be kind of melancholic, but not that much.

First Goal:

III) Clear the air

My stealthy concealed double life caused me to have a lot of matters buried deeply inside and they will remain a barrier for my aims as long as they exist.

III. 1) Old Love

Although I already made this experience, and even wrote a damn story about it I’ve done it nonetheless. It’s time to talk and either way end it.

First (and hopefully only ^^°) Goal:

III. 2) Concealment

For years I claimed to like things I didn’t in fact and vice versa, just to evade discussion and remain in “the flow”. However it’s just wrong to do things you don’t want to do.

First Goal:

IV) Relationship

We all know that I desire to have one for many years, but never got one, mainly due to my encapsulation from the world around me.

IV. 1)Youth

At an age of eighteen every human person passes the zenith of his or her youth.

So did I. And after all I don’t like to see what I’ve achieved so far concerning relationships. At my age some people had two digit amounts of relationships. Not that I had any need for that, but I just often wake up (or generally when I lay in bed) and think about how it would feel with a warm body next to me. I’m just way to fluffy in this aspect ^^°

Sure thing I’ve had sex enough, but that’s just not what I want…well not only :D

Darn me, I’ll stop now, or it would end in a 40 pages emo shit, which I’m not allowed to do according to points II.3)

So here’s the goal:

 
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Okay, so that’s the plan. I hope I’ll get support from my friends and family.

<3 u all.

Oh and btw…I just earned my first achievement:

Current Mood: calm

08:13 am - Hell, it's about time

Yo fellas.

Because of several reasons and my ongoing fallbacks concerning depression I’ve finally decided that it can’t go on like that.

Now I’m working out an X-Point plan to change my life. (X – point because I don’t know how many there are yet.)

Current Mood: depressed

02:22 pm - Upgrade!

Today I found some time to customize my lj site, and found this awesome picture I now have as background.
However it didn't work as intended.
I wanted to have fixed picture on top of the page then the navigation and then the posts, but I just could work out a background image.

Btw, the red text color is only until I find out how to attach this crappy pic at the top of the page, but until then you couldn't read white text so it's dark red now.

greez

Current Mood: annoyed

09:51 am - I need YOU! *point*

Hey fellas,

I'm looking for some volunteers!
What for?
Well, I've started to write a really cool fantasy story with a friend of mine about two or three years ago, but at some point we lost contact and so was our work.
But recently I discovered a hidden backup of it. It has about 54 pages in word atm with no pictures size 12 (i think) plain text. So it's a bit to read^^
I'm currently busy with reading through it and improving the text - I really had another style of writing three years ago ;)

So theese volunteers would read through it and just state their opinion because as the writer I have a fixed point but you out there havn't.
There's only one problem with it..it's german :>

If anyone would want to help me finish this story I'd really be gratefull.
And of course, good ideas will be adopted ;)

greez

Current Mood: busy

10:57 pm - Reanimation

Yay, this is the reanimation of my dead profile
...
Well in fact it never was dead, but never lived either so its an reanimated undead profile now i guess O.o
Beside the fact that profiles are abstract things and can't live or be dead anyway I'm just crazy writing such bullsh**.

Anyway, if someone ever dropps by by chance you're most welcome to leave a comment or even better a link to a bunch of sasunaru (or vice versa xD)

greez,
Julian

Current Mood: crazy